Archive for February, 2010

So, if the next six days are anything like the first day, it’s going to be a great Birthday Holiday week for The Boyfriend and I! Well great in one sense, there’s the whole issue of my lunatic brother right now. So that’s putting a pretty big damper on things…

As I’ve said, The Boyfriend has taken a week off for his birthday. Yesterday was his first day off, and it was all around a great day. He managed to stay awake all day, and even stayed up late so that we could have some fun. And boy, did we ever have fun.

Hours upon hours of torturous teasing. He kept saying, “You’ll be begging for it by the end of the night”, and he was definitely right. I even got a hairbrush spanking, though it’s been awhile since I had one, plus I had almost two weeks of sexual frustration all pent up, so I was hyper-sensitive to every little touch. Needless to say, the sharp, stinging thud from the plastic hairbrush, was almost too much for me, so I only got maybe four or five quick smacks. Satisfied me though!

He was talking ever so dirty to me, and I absolutely love when he does that. We even put on a sex playlist, if you will, because we both wanted background noise (it started getting annoying to flip through porn on the PS3 without a keyboard or mouse!). And The Boyfriend, the hopeless romantic that he is, even had to set the atmosphere, turning off all the lights (even the computer monitor!) and lighting a bunch of strategically placed candles.

My lunatic brother had to be a damper once or twice during the beginning of our session. And even though it was annoying as fuck, the upside is, our session dragged on forever, through relentless hours of teasing. By the time we finally got down to action, I could hardly contain myself, though he seemed to be doing a spectacular job!

As his stellar tongue rhythmically tickled my clit, I was brought to the ultimate and long awaited orgasm. I swear I saw the entire night flash before my eyes, as I asked, “Can I cum?” and was quickly given a “Yes!”. Everything turned white for a split moment, and he was inside me cumming with me, his balls contracting against my asshole. Pure ecstacy…

After that, we were both exhausted and slightly giggly about the encounter that had just took place. We went straight to bed, and made a vow to do “that” more often! This morning, I let him sleep in and in the afternoon, he let me sleep. So we both made up for the lost hours of sleep last night, which was awesome as well.

Today has been full of planning for future sexpeditions on this next six days off. A couple days ago, for the first time in a very very, probably slightly embarrassing, long time, I went out and bought myself some make-up. A little blush, some eyeliner, mascara (which I’ve never owned!), and nail polish. About a month ago, a cousin of mine gave me these really cute heels. So we’ve agreed, some more foot photos are on their way!!

The last foot photo installment I did, was back in the summer, or as we call them around here, “the good ole days”. I did a set during a nail painting session, sadly it was the last time that year that I painted my nails… Then I did another set when we went for, literally, a day of camping somewhere near Nordegg.

I haven’t done another set since then, because I ran out of nail polish. And while everyone else might be okay with bare toenails, I’m not so much okay with it. I prefer to have nailpolish on when feet pictures are being taken. So I took the liberty of buying two new shades, and I plan on doing up a make-up and nailpolish night as soon as I find an outfit that I like to go with it (because I can’t do one thing, if I’m not going to do the other. It’d take the whole she-bang to get me feeling the kind of sexy I want to feel!).

I’m super stoked to do some pictures. It’s been a really long time! Almost too long. I’ve enlisted The Boyfriend to do more of the photography this time, hopefully he’ll be able to manage. Get him to take a picture of a landscape, flowers or weird looking trees, he produces masterpieces without any type of touch up being needed. Get him to take pictures of living things, like humans – and especially naked living things – they always turn out blurry, the lighting is always weird and there seems to be an odd shadow in every one.

I’m hoping we can figure out a way to solve all these issues, and that I’ll take control and be sort of a director, since I have an idea of what I want to do for pictures. I wish I knew more about photography in general. I have so many ideas for what I’d like to see for photos. Especially how I’d like myself to look in a photo. Though I can never seem to nail it on the head (unless it’s photos of my feet in the water, and then I think it looks beautiful and magnetic). I think one of these days, I’m gonna end up taking a photography class.

Same with, one of these days, I’m gonna either purchase a really good webcam or I’m gonna get an awesome video camera, and start making home movies. It’d be so cool to take that from a hobby to a career! I’d love to make my own porn, and see it the way I wanted to see it, since I never can seem to find anything that I’m not overly critical and hardly turned on by… Maybe I’m just too picky 😉

Well I must end this writing, as it’s almost time to cut The Boyfriend’s hair and then take a nice, hot and hopefully kinky shower. Anyone else have an astounding sexual experience lately? Wanna tell me about it in the comments? Do it up!

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For the last two days, all I’ve been thinking about is paddles. I was doing the dishes the other day, and I was thinking about The Rantings Network and all the things I want to do with it. I suddenly remembered about the one and only munch I’ve been to, and B.U.D’s idea of a ping pong paddle covered in sandpaper. Ever since that, I’ve had paddles on the mind.

I’ve never used a paddle before, but I can imagine what it would feel like and more importantly what it would sound like. I think the stinginess of it would be so hot.

I’ve also been fantasizing about inspection scenarios. I shaved the other day, and that got me thinking about how hot it would be to have to shave a certain way, and then have consequences if I didn’t. It’d be incredibly sexy for The Boyfriend to put me in some humiliating position, and check me out and demand that I appear for his approval. Most of my day seems to consist of fantasizing about sexual things.

I’m hoping The Boyfriend and I’s sex life evens out soon. It keeps being extremely long lengths of time between when we have sex, and it’s becoming harder and harder to stay sane. It’s so hard with him working graveyards, and having four kids running around constantly, and having a brother and ex-boyfriend who are almost always here.

Luckily, The Boyfriend has a week off of working for his birthday starting Saturday. So hopefully I’ll get my fill, so to speak 😉 I told The Boyfriend the other day, that I was tempted to send him to an adult store to pick us up a toy or two.

I have a vibrator, but it was one that I got from my ex from out of a vending machine in a bar. It’s just a tiny one, and it’s not exactly the best. I mean, it does it’s job, but I want a new one. And then I really want him to get a paddle or whip or restraints or something more kinky than a vibrator. I would just go without him, but I don’t have my ID. I need to work on getting that!

I need to start going to munches again too. Which means I need to get the youngest on bottles (instead of the boob), and I need to get a babysitter. You know what I really want to go to, because I think it would be one of those experiences that I brag about for the rest of my life? I really want to go to a play party. We have them here, and I know the people that put them on. I’ve never gone, though I really really want to. I don’t know so much if I’d participate my first time, but I sure would observe the heck out of things.

So I know that it’s not for awhile yet, but I wanted to shamelessly promote a Scheduled Chat for The Art Of… and The Art Of… Academy. On April 17th, 2010,  The Rantings Network will be hosting an Idea Exchange. Feel free to join in the conversation and have your say about what happens on the various sites and blogs in The Rantings Network, with a focus on The Art Of… and The Art Of… Academy lessons. The goal is to launch our first lesson on July 1st, 2010. You can find more information about this chat on The Rantings Network Headquarters.

Well that’s all I have to write about tonight. Hopefully in two or three nights, you’ll get joyous “I just got laid” posts 😉

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“Have You Ever…”

CherriesThis Week’s Questions

  1. Have you ever had sex in public?
  2. Have you ever had sex in the shower or bath?
  3. Have you ever had sex outdoors?
  4. Have you ever had sex in the kitchen?
  5. Have you ever used furniture constructed solely for the purpose of sex, such as liberator shapes or swings/slings?

BONUS QUESTION:
Have you ever had sex when you really didn’t want to? Have you ever had sex that you regretted?

RULES

  • Each week, for Wednesday, you post answers to the five questions that are posted. You may answer all, or only one or two of the questions. You can post in whichever format works for you, be it video, poetry, answers, pictures or audio.
  • Insert the WTMFI Wednesdays image at the top of this post (get instructions here) into your post, linking back to The Rantings of a Tortured Mind – XXX Rated Edition at https://rantingsofatorturedmindxxx.wordpress.com
  • Leave a link to your post with the answered questions in the comments section of Wednesday’s WTMFI post. There is a special page for all the links that are submitted, so be sure to submit your links.
  • Have Fun!!!!
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    Woo! Today was a good day, in the blogging sense. I officially hit the 20 visitor mark!!! It only took me three weeks, and almost no promotion whatsoever, to reach my first XXX Rated Rantings milestone. Thanks to all who are reading.

    So I found out an interesting tidbit today. The Boyfriend has been secretly reading Sadopaeidia by Anonymous – my current favourite erotic novel. His favourite part is my favourite part too. I’ve been reading his Forgotten Realms by R.A. Salvatore books for months now, and I’ve expressed extreme interest in him reading one of my erotic books for a year and a half. So I was pretty excited when he said he’s been reading at least one of them. I knew leaving them in the bathroom would eventually work 😉

    The Boyfriend has been nothing but a tease these last two days. It’s his days off, normally days we have sex. Yesterday, there was alot of talk about how that night was going to be a sex night, and then sadly, he fell asleep while I was breastfeeding. Today has been the worst, and it’s made worse by the fact that I know that it’s just teasing.

    First, he’s sitting on the couch with my hairbrush and he starts slapping it against his leg covered in denim jeans. The sound was truly exhilarating, this sharp thuddy sound. I made him stop that one really quickly. Then, he bought himself a belt with these little studs on it. He’s walking around the house with his shirt off, and the belt was glimmering and I said that it could potentially be fun. Then he goes and tells me he’s been reading my erotica. How much do you want to bet that he’ll fall asleep before I’m done breastfeeding again?

    You know, it wouldn’t bother me at all, if he said to me that he was denying sex for some reason, or if he said that I was being punished. But not having sex, just because we’re not, is killing me. The only times in my life that I go this long without sex is when I’m single or when I’m pregnant. And I’m neither of those things!

    Life has been pretty stressful these last couple of weeks, and my desire for an emotional release through pleasurable pain is through the roof. After almost two years of not, I broke down the other day at the height of my stress – every trigger was being pressed – and gave myself two little cuts. I had forgotten what it was like…

    So someone awhile back, found my blog by searching “audio to masturbate to” – probably found it since it was the same week as WTMFI Wednesdays: Week 2 – Masturbation. And it got me thinking about good music to masturbate to. Being that I often masturbate in the bathtub (when I do masturbate, which isn’t very often), I don’t normally listen to music. Though I totally would!

    I would imagine that music that you have sex to is good for listening to when you masturbate. It also really depends on what you’re into musically in the first place. Someone whose into heavy metal wouldn’t necessarily be turned on by Mozart’s “Moonlight Sonota” (which Steve-O and Sandy have sex to while on acid in SLC Punk, one of my all time favourite movies!!), whereas someone who is into more of a dark rock type sound, might be turned on by Nine Inch Nails’ “Discipline”. Some people would enjoy Britney Spears’ “I’ve got that Boom Boom” or maybe Justin Timberlake ft. Ciara with “Love, Sex, Magic”. It really depends on your taste in music, your mood for that moment, and the type of atmosphere you’re trying to create for yourself.

    Another thing to consider is your visualization skills. If you’re good at visualizing things on your own, without porn or erotica, then pretty much any music would work. If, on the other hand, you have a hard time visualizing things and need porn or erotica, then you’re music should attempt to match the type of stimulation you’re using. For instance, if you’re watching alot of anal stuff, or reading about it or looking at it or whatever you’re doing with the ass area in general, I would definitely say these are 10 songs that should be on your masturbation playlist:

    (NOTE: The average man only lasts 2 – 6 minutes, so only 2 or 3 of these songs would be needed for a session)

    • Bubba Sparx – Ms. New Booty
    • Ludacris ft. Shawna – How Low Can You Go
    • Destiny’s Child – Bootylicious
    • Queen – Fat Bottomed Girls
    • Kelis – Milkshake
    • Mindless Self Indulgence – Ultrasex (Not necessarily just for anal;))
    • Mystikal – Shake Your Ass
    • Sean Paul – Shake That Thing
    • Ying Yang Twins – Ass Cheeks on my White Tee
    • Chamillionaire – Grown and Sexy

    Man, I need to get my ID so that I can go out dancing again. I miss the days of skanky dancing. I don’t really get the chance to be much of a sexual deviant at all in my house. My 5-year-old would pick up on it too much. When I showed an interest in belly dancing, guess who learnt how to do figure eights before me!! So imagine what would it be like if I was dropping it like it was hot on a regular basis around her.

    I don’t even know if I’d still know how to move it like I used to. I haven’t been dancing in almost three years!!! I can’t believe it’s been that long… I used to just go dancing when I was pregnant all the time. I was the only pregnant girl out on the dancefloor! Hopefully by the end of the year, I’ll be able to go dancing, because I miss it so much!!

    I’ve been teasing The Boyfriend with a dirty dance for months now. I just want to wait until I tone up more. I wouldn’t, under almost any circumstance, put me in the fat category. I’m still in single digits in dress and pant size, and I’m in the perfect weight range for my height and age. But I have had four kids, and my body is absolutely not what it used to be – especially not what it was back in the days of skanky dancing. Maybe one day 😉

    I’ve read alot on FetLife about leash dances, and I think that would be so erotic. If one day, The Boyfriend put a collar around my neck with a leash attached, and hung the leash up using a hook of some sort and instructed me to dance for him, I think I probably would. And I would probably play Chamillionaire’s “Grown and Sexy” or Kelis’ “Milkshake”.

    Well here’s hopping that soon the XXX Rated Rantings starts getting some comments and I’ll be looking forward to the 30 visitor mark!!! What’s some music that you enjoy listening to when you’re masturbating or having sex?

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    “Don’t Ever Take Away From Me

    My Pornography”

    CherriesThis Week’s Questions

    1. How often do you watch porn? How long does a porn watching session last?
    2. What format do you usually use? Examples: Magazine, DVD’s, Websites…
    3. Do you masturbate every time you watch porn?
    4. Do you prefer to watch porn alone, with you sexual partner, or with a group of people?
    5. What is your favourite thing about porn? Least favourite?

    BONUS QUESTION:
    What do you typically watch where porn is concerned? Have you tried anything that you saw in porn?

    RULES

  • Each week, for Wednesday, you post answers to the five questions that are posted. You may answer all, or only one or two of the questions. You can post in whichever format works for you, be it video, poetry, answers, pictures or audio.
  • Insert the WTMFI Wednesdays image at the top of this post (get instructions here) into your post, linking back to The Rantings of a Tortured Mind – XXX Rated Edition at https://rantingsofatorturedmindxxx.wordpress.com
  • Leave a link to your post with the answered questions in the comments section of Wednesday’s WTMFI post. There is a special page for all the links that are submitted, so be sure to submit your links.
  • Have Fun!!!!
  • … Click the Read More button to see Valerie Rayne’s answers …

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    I’ve been working really hard today on various blog stuff, mostly getting The Art Of... up and running. I’ve decided to set up a different blog for it, since I felt like I couldn’t get the flexibility I desired out of presenting it solely as a series here on The XXX Rated Rantings. I’m hoping to have my first lesson posted by the end of this month, though the research is killing me.

    I spent probably close to three hours today, going through definitions on Wikipedia and looking for more beginner type information. I figure for the first couple of lessons, I’ll take more of a beginners focus and carry it onwards from there. I don’t think that I have the authority to really write about advanced BDSM techniques and activities, when I myself am still just a mere newbie.

    It wasn’t supposed to be like this either. I figured after Alfie and I broke up, that I would spend at least a year just experimenting with my sexuality. Experiencing more BDSM and kink. Especially being that I haven’t really gotten to experience BDSM anywhere near the degree that I’d like to be experiencing it at. But then I met The Boyfriend, and he’s not kinky really at all, but he’s too amazing for me to just pass up. Plus, he’s always shown a hidden interest in the more kinky.

    Before I got pregnant, and up until about my 5th or 6th month, we had gotten into spanking quite a bit. Had a couple really intense sessions. My favourite one, which we even have pictures from, I got all dressed up and put on some make up (which doesn’t happen nearly as often as I wish it did). The Boyfriend had me lean over the ottoman in the living room, and it was just such an amazing experience.

    I had been asking him for months to use a hairbrush as a spanking tool. I wanted to feel the harsh, thuddy impact and then feel the bristles of the brush dragged along the redness. The Boyfriend made it even better by grabbing an ice cube and melting all over the spots he had spanked and then dragging the bristles across my skin. I had such a hard time staying still.

    Since I had my last, we’ve only had one sex session which involved spanking, and it was so mild, you could technically call it love taps or sex taps. Not a real spanking. I’ve been craving one so bad too. I’d love for him to spank me and call me a dirty whore, but he says he won’t ever call me something that’s “disrespectful”. I just laugh hysterically every time he says it.

    The thing that sucks most about doing all this research about BDSM, is I really realize what I’m missing out on. I’m so jealous of the people that get to live in this lifestyle 24/7 or even just casually on weekends. I want to be one of those people. I’m determined that one day I will be. Though I can’t even know that for sure, maybe in reality, I’m not actually into BDSM. Just into the idea of it.

    One thing that I’ve always been interested in receiving as a submissive is sort of behaviour modification, if you will. I would like rules about the way I am to conduct my day and myself. I would like a punishment if I sleep in past a certain time, or don’t have breakfast made by a certain time. I would like workouts and healthy eating to be part of my rules. I would like to have someone to be accountable to, other than myself. I think it would be very powerful, and I think my life would change dramatically.

    Today, I did a 20 minute workout on my Wii Your Shape game. The whole time, I kept thinking, I would be much more motivated to do this workout if I knew that if I didn’t, I would have consequences. Such as, The Boyfriend teases me all day and then denies me orgasm because I didn’t complete my workout, or didn’t give 100% or whatever the stipulations that we agree upon are.

    I think, once I’ve got breast feeding a little more under control, and have some sort of pumping schedule, I’m gonna start going to munches again. The last time The Boyfriend and I went, it truly sparked his interest. That night, all I heard about was how much he thought the idea of tying me up was arousing. It helped that everyone at the munch was so excepting and eager to teach the “vanilla” boyfriend. I think that really made him feel comfortable and more willing to learn than I could’ve ever made him.

    And trust me, I had tried alot prior to the munch. I would leave websites for him to look at, I would search for interesting pictures and show them to him, I would try to read erotica to him. He never really showed interest until that first munch. After that, I would literally say “I want a spanking” and I would get one. Now, it’s hard to just get vanilla sex, which is a little disappointing.

    I wish I could learn everything I wanted to know, in one spot, without having to spend hours and hours searching to find it. I mean, there’s just so much about sex and sexuality and BDSM and fetishes that I want to know more about. I suppose a really smart person would probably tell me that I won’t learn half of the things that I really want to know, until I myself experience it. It’s much like having sex. People can tell you a thousand times about their experiences with sex, and the medical parts of sex. Yet, it’s never what you expect it to be.

    Well I think that’s all I have to write today. Maybe again tomorrow? We’ll see!

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    “When I Think About You

    I Touch Myself”

    Cherries
    This Week’s Questions

    1. How often do you masturbate? How long does a session last?
    2. Have you ever been caught masturbating?
    3. Do you masturbate solely for you pleasure or do you masturbate for others pleasure? Have you ever masturbated because it was necessary?
    4. One hand or two? If you don’t use your hands, what do you use?
    5. Have you ever taken pictures or video of you or someone else masturbating? What format did you use? Where is that material now?

    BONUS QUESTION:
    What do you think about most often when you masturbate? What’s the best fantasy you’ve ever come up with while masturbating?

    RULES

  • Each week, for Wednesday, you post answers to the five questions that are posted. You may answer all, or only one or two of the questions. You can post in whichever format works for you, be it video, poetry, answers, pictures or audio.
  • Insert the WTMFI Wednesdays image at the top of this post (get instructions here) into your post, linking back to The Rantings of a Tortured Mind – XXX Rated Edition at https://rantingsofatorturedmindxxx.wordpress.com
  • Leave a link to your post with the answered questions in the comments section of Wednesday’s WTMFI post. There is a special page for all the links that are submitted, so be sure to submit your links.
  • Have Fun!!!!
  • … Click the Read More button to see Valerie Rayne’s answers …

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