Posts Tagged ‘Chat’

Tons to write about tonight… From unsanitary stripper hot tubs to the most exciting part of my day, hopefully I’ll be able to keep it together 😉

So first big bit of news, guess what I got today?!?!?!? I’ve been saying I wanted one for years, and guess what folks? I finally got it. That’s right Ladies and Gentlemen, I am officially the proud owner of a laptop. Here I sit, writing this post to you from my brand new HP Mini 10″. Since I’ve never used a laptop before, and am extremely used to the traditional desktop, I am having quite a few issues, from too large of font size to pushing buttons that I shouldn’t be pushing 😉

It took me so long to pick it out, and I kept arguing with myself, “Val, you don’t NEED this.” “Yes, but I’ve wanted it for so long!!!” But then I picked it up and I was like, “Yup, I’m taking this home with me!” I wouldn’t have at all if it wasn’t for The Boyfriend cheering me on, and even helping me with the all important pro/con list. This one was easier to type on than the other one.

So, of course I came home and immediately booted up my brand new laptop. We had gotten The Boyfriend “Red Dead Redemption”, so he was occupied.  I got talking to my Sister, and eventually it lead to a new bit of information that Alfie has leaked to me. Apparently, my favorite (and what I used to think was classier) strip club, has now included a hot tub into the list of features they have. I don’t know for sure all what they have, but when I used to go they had two poles, a swing and a shower. Now they supposedly have a bubbly bath.

When Alfie first told me about it, I went into this entire rant about what kind of sanitation guidelines they had to follow and how that one tub was going to be the ruin of the adult industry, because of one strippers unsanitary and contagious sexually transmitted infection/disease.

Then all of a sudden my Sister starts sending me all these little porn clips in MSN. Well, since the whole hatred of The Boyfriend watching porn thing, I haven’t had any desire to have porn anywhere near me. I don’t want to think about other people have sex, and I definitely don’t want to see it. So I hastily ended my conversation with her, and decided to jump on over to ALT.com’s chatrooms and chat with some of the locals.

I’ve recently discovered that I live very close to some of the people in my community. So much so, that when I saw a firecracker go off in front of my house, they heard it from theirs.  Conversations were going really really great with everyone until one person decided it was time to cyber and another decided it was time to encourage me to either cheat on or leave The Boyfriend.

And I just feel like neither of those are even close to an option. I can’t imagine breaking up what I have now, what I consider to be my current family, all to satisfy my sexual urges!!! I know that eventually in my life, I need to discover who I am sexually. And if that means that I have to travel on without him, so be it. But I don’t want it to be right now. I feel like I haven’t even gotten the chance to get to know him!!!

I just think I’m incredibly confused. On the one hand, I so desperately want BDSM to become more a part of my life. On the one hand, I so desperately want to be the sexual person I long to be. But on the other hand, well the other hand really has no idea what it wants at all. But the other hand would like a chance to see if this could work out in its favor, before just flipping out and going off with someone else.

I don’t even know if I’d be okay with it if The Boyfriend was like, “It’s alright Val, you go off and discover yourself. I’ll be waiting for you with open arms when you get back.” I just don’t know what I want….

It’d be so different if I didn’t have to constantly think about all these kids. And that was another thing. Someone said because I didn’t take the time to fully discover myself and jumped into the baby thing that it showed a lack of maturity. And I don’t think I agree with that at all.

No offense to almost everyone I know, but I’m more mature than almost anyone I know. I mean, I am a mother of four whose been taking care of my responsibilities with very little help, for the last three years. I’d say that takes a pretty heightened level of maturity. I’m the one who pays the bills and puts food on the table and clothes on their backs. I’m the one whose kept this particular roof over our head for almost three years now!!! I’d say that’s pretty freaking mature of me…

And I’m seriously still waiting for one person to tell me that they have reached the point of absolute sexual satisfaction! I’m only 23, I have at least say 23 more years of experience to gain ahead of me. I don’t think I’m in that dreadful of a situation. Unless 23 is somehow now old, in which case, fuck me!!

Kept going off on statistically. Apparently, statistically, those of us under the age of 25 in a long-term relationship have an 80% fail rate. Believable? Very much so. Apparently, in 5 years it’s unlikely that The Boyfriend and I will even be together. So does that somehow mean that I’m now supposed to forget about his feelings, his existence and just go off and find myself sexually, or do I wait the five years until we’re broken up and then find myself sexually. I mean, I am only 23!!!

It started off as a really good chat night, and then it just turned bad. I don’t go into chatrooms to cyber or be told to break up with my boyfriend. I go into them to chat about what we’re all striving towards. I go into them to find someone else who thinks about what I think about. And I don’t think about cybering!!!!

Well, that’s officially my rant for the night. Things are starting to get blurry as I finish my fourth Smirnoff Ice (One ahead of The Boyfriend ;)) Hopefully I’ll be writing tomorrow about my amazing drunken sexperience tonight 😉

So, this upcoming Wednesday (March 17th, 2010) for WTMFI Wednesdays, the format will be changing just a little bit. We’re gonna start a series called “Erotic Inspirations”. In this series, I’ll give you five words and your mission is to write something erotic using those five words.

It can be erotica, poetry, a picture that somehow utilizes the five words. It can just be a regular normal post for you that includes the five words. Whatever you’d like to write, however much you’d like to write, or whatever format you’d like to use. I thought it would be a good idea to put up a list of great erotic reading sites. So here they are!

  • Literotica.com
    Literotica has a wide selection of all different types of reading. You can submit your own stories or read other people’s. They have stories, poems, writer collaborated stories, and erotic audio files.
  • Lusty Library
    I haven’t done much browsing of this site, but upon first look, it lays out really well. Basically the same as Literotica (though better looking), it includes everything from straight to lesbian, vanilla to kinky and many more kinds of stories.
  • SexTails
    Easy navigation, lots of great stories on almost everything you can imagine.
  • Lush Stories
    A community where you can post, read and comment on erotic stories.

So, I hope that those sites can provide you with some inspiration before WTMFI Wednesdays on the 17th. Also, check out this great site for some image inspiration 😉

I thought that this would be a perfect time to ask anyone with an erotica blog or site to post a link in the comments section, or e-mail with me and I’ll post them on the sidebar. If anyone thinks that starting an Erotic Inspirations or something sort of like it, apart from WTMFI Wednesdays, is a good idea, tell me in the comments or e-mail me and let me know what you think.

And since we’re discussing blog type things, I figure I’ll post this now. On April 17th at 7:00 PM, I will be hosting an Idea Exchange chat for all the blogs and sites in The Rantings Network. It was originally meant just for The Art Of…, but then ideas expanded and changed and WTMFI Wednesdays was born, and I figured it would be great to get input on all of the sites and blogs.

You can check out The Rantings of a Tortured Mind – XXX Rated Calendar to find out about past and upcoming posts. Here’s the chat room, though I don’t expect that you would find anyone in there, except for maybe when the scheduled chats are (I know I’ll be there!). You can always RSVP to events on the calendar, leave me a comment, or e-mail me at anytime that you’d like.

UnpredictableAngel13@hotmail.com

For the last two days, all I’ve been thinking about is paddles. I was doing the dishes the other day, and I was thinking about The Rantings Network and all the things I want to do with it. I suddenly remembered about the one and only munch I’ve been to, and B.U.D’s idea of a ping pong paddle covered in sandpaper. Ever since that, I’ve had paddles on the mind.

I’ve never used a paddle before, but I can imagine what it would feel like and more importantly what it would sound like. I think the stinginess of it would be so hot.

I’ve also been fantasizing about inspection scenarios. I shaved the other day, and that got me thinking about how hot it would be to have to shave a certain way, and then have consequences if I didn’t. It’d be incredibly sexy for The Boyfriend to put me in some humiliating position, and check me out and demand that I appear for his approval. Most of my day seems to consist of fantasizing about sexual things.

I’m hoping The Boyfriend and I’s sex life evens out soon. It keeps being extremely long lengths of time between when we have sex, and it’s becoming harder and harder to stay sane. It’s so hard with him working graveyards, and having four kids running around constantly, and having a brother and ex-boyfriend who are almost always here.

Luckily, The Boyfriend has a week off of working for his birthday starting Saturday. So hopefully I’ll get my fill, so to speak 😉 I told The Boyfriend the other day, that I was tempted to send him to an adult store to pick us up a toy or two.

I have a vibrator, but it was one that I got from my ex from out of a vending machine in a bar. It’s just a tiny one, and it’s not exactly the best. I mean, it does it’s job, but I want a new one. And then I really want him to get a paddle or whip or restraints or something more kinky than a vibrator. I would just go without him, but I don’t have my ID. I need to work on getting that!

I need to start going to munches again too. Which means I need to get the youngest on bottles (instead of the boob), and I need to get a babysitter. You know what I really want to go to, because I think it would be one of those experiences that I brag about for the rest of my life? I really want to go to a play party. We have them here, and I know the people that put them on. I’ve never gone, though I really really want to. I don’t know so much if I’d participate my first time, but I sure would observe the heck out of things.

So I know that it’s not for awhile yet, but I wanted to shamelessly promote a Scheduled Chat for The Art Of… and The Art Of… Academy. On April 17th, 2010,  The Rantings Network will be hosting an Idea Exchange. Feel free to join in the conversation and have your say about what happens on the various sites and blogs in The Rantings Network, with a focus on The Art Of… and The Art Of… Academy lessons. The goal is to launch our first lesson on July 1st, 2010. You can find more information about this chat on The Rantings Network Headquarters.

Well that’s all I have to write about tonight. Hopefully in two or three nights, you’ll get joyous “I just got laid” posts 😉