Posts Tagged ‘Vibrator’

I’m feeling very turned on right now, not 100% sure why. I was sitting on the couch, watching Gilmore Girls (kind of going through a phase…), and suddenly I was turned on. I hate that The Boyfriend works night, because it would be nice to have him around for those moments, especially since it’s most likely to happen around about that time… The silence, you know 😉

Last night, The Boyfriend and I had an absolutely delightful night. He had had four nights off, and the first three nights we were both much too tired to do just about anything. Sleep was our main priority. Finally, the fourth night, we didn’t sleep. Well, eventually we did, but not originally 😉

When we started, I didn’t expect that it would carry on long at all. That we’d both probably get distracted and it would just be another make out session. I crawled on top of him on the couch and one thing led to another, and next thing I know, he’s grabbing my hips and literally making me ride him. I was bouncing up and down, and we were both erotically laughing as my head and hair bobbed all over the place. It was fun sex.

Then, we switched to me face down and him on top from behind, vaginally of course (my choice, not his)! He doesn’t know this completely, but I normally go to this position when I’m ready for him to cum, because I know it happens quickly. Whereas when I’m on top, sometimes it can take a really long time. And while I appreciate the hour(s) long sex, I am a Mom of four and when 3 AM rolls around, I start getting pretty worried about how little sleep I’m going to get…

He came fast, as I knew he would, and I hadn’t yet. I had had the flogger earlier in the night (with the intention of flogging him, though the making out started and the flogger kind of got dropped, literally), so while I played with myself, my ass got a nice little flogging. After what seemed like too long of playing and not cumming, I asked The Boyfriend to grab me the purple pussy vibrator.

The piece of crap (I really gotta replace that thing…) finally got used, after months of isolation beneath the night table in my room. It even got a fresh new battery in it. Man oh man, did it ever feel nice grinding against the vibrator as The Boyfriend rhythmically beat my ass with the flogger.

After he was done, he was saying my ass was really red and he could see some welting on the roundest part of my butt. I fell asleep before I looked in the mirror, and of course, the next morning, absolutely nothing. I so badly want a beating that leaves a mark. That hurts the next day when I sit down. That hurts more when it’s happening. We’ve agreed that we’re picking up something less vanilla the next time we get something.

We went out shopping the other day and hit one of our local bookstores. I came across “The Guide to Getting It On”, and was so happy to finally have an educational sex book, and not just erotica. I’ve always, for as long as I can remember, wanted a library filled with nothing but sex, medical and psychology books. Same with, I want a room with a display of decorative glass dildos. I know, what a shame not to use them, but I figure I’ll just buy everyone in a set of two! If only…

I haven’t really read anything but the BDSM section, of course 😉 I was wondering about something after reading it. The book describes a fetish as a reliance on a certain something to achieve arousal. And I know that’s like the medical definition of a fetish, but in the kinky world, is a fetish really like that? I say that I have a foot fetish, because I love love love feet. I think feet are erotic and sexy and upon looking at an extremely beautiful pair of feet, I feel passionate. But I don’t rely on feet (other than the fact that certain positions require them) to achieve arousal. Does that mean that it’s not a fetish then? And if it’s not a fetish, what is it?

I’ve always kind of considered a fetish to be something that you find erotic that “normal” society wouldn’t, like a foot or a food or a material. And I’ve always considered a paraphillia to be the reliance part. And I know that they’re basically one in the same, but I feel like one should sound like less of an abnormality than the other. That way those of us who can still get turned on without the object, aren’t put on the same list of those who can’t and those who “normal” society (and sometimes the person themselves) think need help. I know it sounds like I’m trying to put a label on something that has no need for a label in the first place, but I feel like if there were a separation between the two, fetishes would be more accepted. Assuming anyone agrees with the fetish/paraphillia separation.

I think The Boyfriend and I can officially start looking into going to munches again. The kids are all old enough now that they can safely be left with family, and formula has been bought, plus The Boyfriend is going down to part-time 😉

I’ve been craving some sort of interaction to this world that I keep getting pulled deeper and deeper into. My interests in it just keep expanding the more I experience. The thing that almost scares me, is how much more I want. Like with the floggings. After every flogging, I’m telling The Boyfriend to do it harder next time. Then he does, and I tell him to do it harder. Is it always going to be like this? Never gets hard enough…

It’s like safewords. I’ve never been even slightly close to using a safeword with The Boyfriend. I’ve never even said things like stop or don’t or no more. It’s always been a very manageable pain.

I hope one day I feel completely sexually fulfilled. I hope, before I die, I feel like I know who I am sexually, for sure. No questions about it. Does anyone out there feel completely satisfied with their sexuality?

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“Vibeology”

CherriesThis Week’s Questions

  1. Do you own a vibrator and/or dildo? If so, what kind? If not, why?
  2. What is the most amount of money you have spent on a sexual product? It can be a book, a toy, a magazine, a DVD or a website subscription.
  3. What is one sex toy you’ve always wanted to try and how did you want to use it? Have you had the opportunity to do so?
  4. How often would you say you use a sex toy in a month?
  5. Have you ever used an object as a sex toy, that wasn’t technically considered a sex toy? Example: Cucumber or Spatula Handle

BONUS QUESTION:
What has been your greatest sex toy experience or what is your greatest sex toy fantasy?

RULES

  • Each week, for Wednesday, you post answers to the five questions that are posted. You may answer all, or only one or two of the questions. You can post in whichever format works for you, be it video, poetry, answers, pictures or audio.
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    For the last two days, all I’ve been thinking about is paddles. I was doing the dishes the other day, and I was thinking about The Rantings Network and all the things I want to do with it. I suddenly remembered about the one and only munch I’ve been to, and B.U.D’s idea of a ping pong paddle covered in sandpaper. Ever since that, I’ve had paddles on the mind.

    I’ve never used a paddle before, but I can imagine what it would feel like and more importantly what it would sound like. I think the stinginess of it would be so hot.

    I’ve also been fantasizing about inspection scenarios. I shaved the other day, and that got me thinking about how hot it would be to have to shave a certain way, and then have consequences if I didn’t. It’d be incredibly sexy for The Boyfriend to put me in some humiliating position, and check me out and demand that I appear for his approval. Most of my day seems to consist of fantasizing about sexual things.

    I’m hoping The Boyfriend and I’s sex life evens out soon. It keeps being extremely long lengths of time between when we have sex, and it’s becoming harder and harder to stay sane. It’s so hard with him working graveyards, and having four kids running around constantly, and having a brother and ex-boyfriend who are almost always here.

    Luckily, The Boyfriend has a week off of working for his birthday starting Saturday. So hopefully I’ll get my fill, so to speak 😉 I told The Boyfriend the other day, that I was tempted to send him to an adult store to pick us up a toy or two.

    I have a vibrator, but it was one that I got from my ex from out of a vending machine in a bar. It’s just a tiny one, and it’s not exactly the best. I mean, it does it’s job, but I want a new one. And then I really want him to get a paddle or whip or restraints or something more kinky than a vibrator. I would just go without him, but I don’t have my ID. I need to work on getting that!

    I need to start going to munches again too. Which means I need to get the youngest on bottles (instead of the boob), and I need to get a babysitter. You know what I really want to go to, because I think it would be one of those experiences that I brag about for the rest of my life? I really want to go to a play party. We have them here, and I know the people that put them on. I’ve never gone, though I really really want to. I don’t know so much if I’d participate my first time, but I sure would observe the heck out of things.

    So I know that it’s not for awhile yet, but I wanted to shamelessly promote a Scheduled Chat for The Art Of… and The Art Of… Academy. On April 17th, 2010,  The Rantings Network will be hosting an Idea Exchange. Feel free to join in the conversation and have your say about what happens on the various sites and blogs in The Rantings Network, with a focus on The Art Of… and The Art Of… Academy lessons. The goal is to launch our first lesson on July 1st, 2010. You can find more information about this chat on The Rantings Network Headquarters.

    Well that’s all I have to write about tonight. Hopefully in two or three nights, you’ll get joyous “I just got laid” posts 😉